So in my most casual post ever, this is where I'm at. Right now.
I like to make to-do lists and check off all the boxes. If I handwrite one, I put a dash before every item. Then, once I do the thing, I put a vertical line through the dash so it ends up like a plus mark. That's how I know what has been done and what hasn't. It's a system.
Well, systems are not working so well lately. And since I am just too far behind, I thought I'd share my Didn't-Do list.
- take down the string of red heart doilies in the kitchen
- change the shamrock placemats to Easter ones
- plant our Easter Garden
- get out the Resurrection eggs so that my kids can be learning about the real meaning of Easter
- do anything related to Lent. anything at all.
- sweep my porch
- vacuum my carpet (which is not entirely my fault. in the garage, we found a chrysalis hanging from the cord. something is having an awesome metamorphosis in that thing, and I will have gross carpet covered in crumbs and craft bits until that thing emerges, so help me God.)
- get any spring flowers from Trader Joes to put in all the cute vases I have around here
- read blogs
- make Easter baskets for my kids
- report to the HOA how some bad person stole all the gasoline out of my husband's car the other night! (yes they did. it was parked in our driveway. how shocking is that, btw?)
- have healthy boundaries with members of the PTA asking for my participation next year
And ughhh, this is getting depressing. I am drowning in unfinished business, undone chores, and didn't-do lists like never before.
But guess what. When I talked to God about it last weekend, He said NBD. Yes, He may have stolen that from Julie. But nonetheless, He said it. "No big deal." He was like, "Really? Are those things all that important right now? Is it the end of the world if you get take-out a couple extra times, decorate for Easter next year, and have a porch littered with leaves? Why not get us both out of the box you have us in, and LET IT GO."
I said, "Hmm. Okay."
So basically, the summary of this post is to say that I'm at peace with my chaos right now and even my house's lack of Easter cuteness. It's not totally easy to let go of traditions and certain kinds of order, two things I love. I won't lie. But what is easy is opening my mind up to the fact that God can surprise me with who He is. He hates boxes. As soon as I put Him in one - like the "He wants me to do these 10 things to prepare myself and my family for Easter" box, He crushes it and says, "Now what?"
I like that kind of challenge. I like learning new things about God. And most of all, I like it when He offers me freedom when I need it most. He unburdened me this week. Thanks God.
Have a great weekend. If you come to my house, just don't expect to be invited in.
Well, until the thing in the chrysalis hatches.
I don't even think they call it "hatching," do they?